First, I'll give you some background. My family all has some sort of ability, even my one year old nephew. My brother has precognitions, my mother and grandma see apparitions, and me? Nothing. Well, that's my problem. I've always been interested in this stuff even since I was little, but I've only had one or two notable experiences, up until recently.
Leading up to my 18th birthday I felt this distant sense of dread and apathy. I refused to celebrate it, and started noticing shadows. While I was on my laptop one night, a moderately sized, extremely bright light appeared in the middle of the room (windows were covered) and floated past me towards my bed pillow. I wasn't scared at all, I just watched until it disappeared. I actually felt a little comforted. (I forgot to mention that my little sister that shared my room passed away two years prior). So I told my mother and she thought it may have been her. I like to believe so. Also, one day when I was about maybe 13, I spilled milk in my room and went downstairs to get paper towels (there was no one else in the house) but when I came back upstairs the milk was gone.
Also, every night for the past 2 months I've been waking up at 3 am. I don't know if this is relevant or means anything, but it just weirded me out because everyone was asleep. Anyway, so my 18th birthday hit and me and my boyfriend decided to have sex. Please don't judge me just yet. But yeah, he purchased two boxes of condoms for some reason and weird stuff began to happen. The first one he put on the wrong way and I refused to use it. Then the next two wouldn't go on. In the second box, one condom was covered in shards of... Something I don't know, so we threw that one out. And then the next one had black ink on it... Or gunk... I don't know. Throughout this whole process I had a horrible feeling in my gut and told my boyfriend that we should just forget it. But he was persistent and the last one seemed okay.
Before we even started anything that day I had a feeling, and told him to pull out just in case. I apologize for being frank. Anyway, when we finally did it, THE CONDOM BROKE. He pulled out just in time.
Another thing that happened just last wednesday, was that I was walking home from an orchestra rehearsal and the air felt really heavy. I asked my mom to pick me up but she was in court, so I walked. I kept looking over my shoulder and was keeping my boyfriend updated on where I was. He offered to pick me up, but I didn't want to bother, although something in me really wanted him to come. However, I didn't want to wait in the dark while he came. So I kept going, and felt this really bad feeling and immediately after a car stopped in front of me. The lights were on and this man started talking to me, and followed me for a couple blocks. I knew automatically that I shouldn't respond and just shook my head and never stopped walking. He sped off when I took out my phone, and my boyfriend picked me up.
So my question is, does anyone have any idea what's going on with me?
Well I should say that I've found nice strangers at every city I visited while backpacking through Euroope. There are creepy people and creepy shadows, but there are nice people and nice shadows that will protect and guide those willing to listen to their instincts and look for the light and love that shines around those people and those shadows if you don't let fear blind you.
The angels in the bible state "be not afraid" that means that the people were SCARED of angels too. So you're not alone, but sometimes the message is worth overcoming the fear. I hope your remember that there are many who love and care for you, some might be among the shadows that protect and guide your life, unacknowledged. Like the millions of things my mom did for me when I was growing up that I didn't appreciate until I had my own kids (YUCK diapers. Don't know a single person who ENJOYS changing them) Guarding humans sounds to me like a thankless job most of the time too.
It is great that GOD and angels have more patience and tolerance than most humans (me especially). Anyways. Sleepy
Peace, light and love
AnandaHya