Most people will see the world in a normal way. Flowers and trees, beautiful houses and factories, vehicles and people. These are normal. Until I see them and they bring on a much darker or strange look to them. A hallway with hardwood floors and faded painted walls with a single light at then end, this is usually seem as a bad interior decorators mistake but to me it's a scene of horror. I can go some where and see where people died even if it's been cleaned or rebuilt. I can look at houses and buildings or places and objects and feel as if I was there at the time the person died. As I put it "it looks like something out of a horror movie". In my head and even in front of my eyes I can play it all out. I haven't contacted anyone to confirm what I think has happened but it's just a gut feeling. I can have dreams that also allow me to experience my minds eye playing tricks on me. Dreams where I am swearing to myself that it's not real
But feels real. Dreams that haunt me. But more then likely I just have and overactive imagination. I'm an artist and I draw people a lot. People ask me how I can just come up with people out of my head and none of my drawings look the same and look real. I don't know. Maybe this is how I also see things or dream things. Maybe I'm not crazy or psychic just imaginative. I also have drawn people who later look like people that I meet or see. I drew a picture of a little girl in a floofy dress opening presents under Christmas tree well about a year later I met one of my husbands coworkers and his family on Christmas and his young daughter looked exactly like the drawing. To the t even the dress and bow. When I look at the world I can visualize the choices and actions people will make. Even my own. I can see a transparent layer of a world that shows me the way things play out if they choose to walk here or say that while they stand still. It's just like in the movies how the over lap things and you can see a transparent version of the actor veer off and it's kind of creeps you how real it looks. That's it. I wonder sometimes what to do. If my eyes are playing tricks on me or I'm really seeing this. And I stuck in one of those movies where the person sees and hears things and can speak to the dead? Am I strange for even thinking that? Ha o well.
❤