Disrupting The Balance

I have been away for some time now, practicing meditation and training to harness my powers. I have been in darker moods recently, due to negative people and situations that occur around me. I noticed that while I am in my darker moods, the atmosphere around me is a lot worse than it was before. It is heavier, darker, and kind of depressing. If I were to stay in a mood like that, demons are attracted to my presence, trying to absorb my energy. If I exert more energy and convey my intent to them, I can sometimes get them to carry it out. I was looking for a friend one night, and since he could not contact us, I used them to search the whole city. Afterward, I was very tired and impatient with everyone. Also, I had lost my gift to see premonitions. As it turns out, premonitions are a power of light, and I overthrew the balance so that light was the lesser entity. My abilities as an empath were severely affected. I could not feel the positive things everyone around me felt, and the negative were amplified. Everyone's frustrations, pains, and fears all hit me in a physical sense that was unbearable. So apparently I have to keep the balance even in order to use both sides and not get hurt. Is there anyone else out there who has the same kind of problems?