A endless void, draining the life out of me. What it is, I do not know. I wake up feeling exhausted, I go to bed feeling exhausted. I feel like I'm on the verge of passing out during the day.
I can physically feel it draining me, almost sanguinely. I feel as if I hate everyone and cannot keep a relationship more then a month. I constantly find flaws and bad traits in whoever I'm with. I have premonitions and disturbing visions. Listening to music used to help me feel rejuvenated, but now it doesn't help me anymore. I'm worried that there's something following me. I constantly feel as if I am not alone when there's no one else in the room. I've felt a light touch on my shoulder only to look and see no one was there. I have people introduce themselves to me, in my head. I brush them off as my rpg characters but I do not believe they are. Devine is the latest one, he is a spirit from the 1920's.
Can anyone please help me with this?
It's starting to physically exhaust me and I wake up and go through the day feeling like I'm going to pass out any minute. I do not have any chronic diseases or diabetes either, I went to the doctor about it and he said nothing was wrong. I'm worried for my life's sake.
Lyro and Adaryn7 had good things to say. In addition to what they said I would like to add that I believe the spirit is trying to draw you away from positive human interaction.
When the body dies, it turns to dust. When the soul dies, it turns negative. When the spirit dies, it separates itself from both the soul and body. Your soul has turned negative. That's what is causing you to feel so negatively and tired. Your spirit is beginning to separate itself from everything. That's why you constantly think negatively.
I hope this isn't offensive. I know what you are saying, I understand. I relate to you. Thats what human interaction is all about, positively relating to one another. I have a story you might be able to relate to. Feel free to check it out.
You should never be afraid of your own feelings. All things in moderation. Practice trying to generate a positive experience. The type of experiences that happen in our lives shape us. Learn to shape experience instead of experience shaping you. Don't be a stranger.