Lights I See But Don't Understand

I'm 20 years old and have seen balls of light for as long as I can remember but unlike every one else on this sight I don't understand it y'all say you see like shapes of people but I only see blue,white,and black lights but mostly blue actually it's usually blue. I sometimes hear people calling my name but for a long time I thought I was insane or something but it's just too real. I can't tell the future or read minds or any of that stuff but maybe I just don't see the signs I guess. It's confusing to me I need someone to explain it to me in greater detail as to why I am the way I am. I tried to tell my boyfriend of three years but he called me crazy but something follows him around and I see it I suppose that is what y'all call spirit guides. Sometimes (I don't know if it's just a coincidence) but I will think of someone and then bam two seconds later they will call or come to my house or I will see them the next day but honestly I personally think it's just by coincidence. Its getting stronger and it doesn't bother me anymore I really just want to understand it so I found this website thinking someone could help me to understand because I don't want to ignore it anymore so please people explain this to me and why I have blue lights following me EVERYWHERE.