In this post I would like to talk about my experiences concerning demons.
In my family, religion is very important. My mother and her parents are catholic, so is my sister, my grandfather on my father's side was Hindu, and my father is a Buddhist, my whole life, I was torn between Buddhism, and Catholicism. And I guess I am both. I believe in both. But the point is, ever since I was a child my mother's mother told me stories about Lucifer's rebellion against God. When I was young, in my room, I began to reflect about demons, and Lucifer, I began to express my thoughts about him, about how I hated him, then I said I was not afraid of him, and right then, the lights of the whole house went off Right in the middle of the night, darkness engulfed everything. As a small child, I was always afraid of the Dark but this time I was extra scared because the lights just happened to get turned off right when I said I wasn't afraid of the devil. It could've just been a coincidence, but at the moment, I could have sworn I knew that he was angry with me, and wanted me to be afraid of him. And it worked.
When I was a little older, I did something similar; I again said I was not afraid. And this time, the punishment was worst then the last time. Every time I closed my eyes, I would see something horrible; I began to see terrifying things. I began to feel a heat surround my body, and it was agonizing, I was getting hurt, but not by my body, but by my mind. Only with a lot of prayer, could I shake this feeling, and it wasn't easy.
This year, when I was sleeping, I was attacked by a man made of shadow. He choked, and I lay on my bed trying to fight him, and it was difficult to break his hold. But by some miracle I was able to break free somehow, and right when I was free, it disappeared.
Sometimes I hear voices in my head, they try to demoralize me and make me afraid. They fool me and make see things that scare, me. Sometimes I am so afraid I can't sleep, and I stay the whole night awake and afraid.
I know all of you have different beliefs. But I think it's safe to assume that most of you believe in an evil force. I would like to hear what you guys think about this, and if you can offer help.