I'm new to the site and relatively new to acknowledging psychic phenomenon, and developing my abilities so I do apologize if this is not detailed enough or is too detailed...
As a young child I unknowingly used psychic abilities. My first experience was me at the age of 4 asking my parents if I was adopted. Being adopted at birth, this surprised them since they planned not to tell me for a while. They thought merely I was a very observant child, as did I. My father being raised in a very religious family and my mother coming from one of a scientific background there was not much exposure to the paranormal. It wasn't until I started having visions that I began to wonder if it was a coincidence or something more I began to play wit it trying to predict stuff and reading people minds and I especially love remote viewing and trying to project myself onto other people and in essence see through their eyes. It wasn't until I accidentally read my parents emotions and predicted my father having an affair that I stopped using my abilities, being scared of the possibility I had abilities I had tried to shut it out only to have these abilities pop out during intense emotional situations.
After a while I began to loose all my abilities and went through a phase of sever depression at the age of ten, depression which still plagues me today. It was around grade 12 when my abilities fully resurfaced without warning. I was now able to without trying feel people emotions and thoughts. During that year I was hit with an onslaught of emotions that confused me and left me realizing that I had lost my sense of self and was fully taking on the emotions of others. I regarded it as a curse. I also began to notice that if I concentrated hard enough I was able to see what others were seeing and still focus on what I was doing (if that makes sense).
I'm posting here to see if I can get help and possibly control my abilities. If I am angry I often cannot control my abilities and have caused people mental anguish, I have project my own emotions on others and even caused small energy bursts which have caused electronics to short out or turn off and even once caused a glass to explode. I'm also wondering if this is normal at all for some one who's repressed their abilities.
So far I have tried meditating and focusing my energy. I found that talking with those who I am close with has helped significantly and discussing this with a friend who is a natural astral traveler even more so. But I still find that my abilities are uncontrollable.
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