I Sometimes See Things In My Head

I've had many experiences in my life that I don't understand, my first one was 3 or 4 years old before my mother died. I saw this ugly looking thing that looked like a mud monster thing not sure but what I can remember is that he tried to come after me, didn't know what he wanted... Remembering myself running and running. He never got me though but after this happened my mother died.

A few years later another thing happened, I saw this doll walking and running when I was about 7yrs old, this doll scared me, didn't know what she wanted but after this happened my grandfather passed away. My older brother died in 1990, all I remember seeing was a dark shadow walking pass my bedroom door. To this day things have gotten scarier for me and I don't know how to control it.

This is not all, I've seen things unusual and scary, for my late twin brother I seen him in a coven, I seen this in my head before he pass but I didn't understand it, before he died, I also saw death, a dark shadow standing by my door, I looked away but he was still there. I covered my face with the blanket for a while and than uncovered and their he was right in front of me, I didn't see a face at all, just remember being so scared and told him to leave me a lone... The next day after this my twin passed away which was very hard for me to handle even to this day, it's been almost 10yrs now.

When I hear things at night right before I fell asleep I would start to hear things coming my way I can since them, like an evil thing, like it wants me or something. This doesn't happen to me all the time only when something goes wrong in my home community, I always wanted to know why? I still don't understand this happening to me, when I hear or see things they happen, happen such as death. Never a good thing it's always been a bad thing, why?

I know my story isn't very well organized but I'm trying. I sometimes see things in my head what's coming or who's coming and than they happen a few minutes or hours later. I need to know how to use it more. I need to know more of this cause I still don't understand. Do I need to help the spirits or something before they die? I really don't know. I do pray before I sleep so I won't be scared if those things happen... Sometimes I think they will hurt me.