Unexplained Reality

One Day I stayed up the entire night because I was talking to my boyfriend who I have been with for 6 months. I took some sleeping pills and went to sleep.

I am about tell you a dream but, I think it could quite possibly have to do with all of the unexplained (I refused to call this paranormal) I believe this is perfectly normal just unexplained. I find it sort of insulting to say spirits or other beings as not normal. Normality is in the eyes of the beholder. It is different for everyone. Experiences I have been having my entire life.

I dreamed of an extra terrestrial contact. Now like I said this might help as well. I was in an operating room they were extracting things I was tied to a table while they were sexually removing my seamen. This is nasty but, I will speak nothing but, the truth. Then they extracted fluids from even nastier places. (My behind) My blood was also take and, fluids from my nose. Then lastly my spit and, skin samples.

Then I woke up. (in the dream) I saw a figure standing in front of me telling me that there are good people and bad people out there. Then that it didn't happen. We had a very amazing conversation. I believe I really had contact with him.

Then a spirit appeared right after I woke up and tried to harm me. I heard a voice that sounded like a cow and, a leaf blower combined. Then I stared at it and slowly began to see it. Its mouth was moving its hand was trying to reach in side of me. It was trying to make out words but, had a hard time doing so. It has been following me for awhile now. I asked it if it was good or evil. It said; EVIL. I ran out numb on, my sleeping pill crying in tears to my mother. It tricked me into believe it was my grandfather.

It was a Black and with a hint of Grey coloring. I also have a monkey doll in my room that my grandfather gave me. It is a family heirloom. I have been seeing my grandpa as well.

I remember the moment he died I was in my family room on the computer 4 years ago in December. He said I'm okay. He died of cancer. Also last year during a cancer relay; I was crying during when they lit the Luminara ceremony. I felt him hugging me as he and, my sister as was comforting me. I know it is not him I know that. He loved all of us. I remember watching the newest version of King Kong. Just because It was to late and, I was in elementary school. I couldn't stay up to late. Now I am enrolling internet school due to my emotional issues. I am also bipolar. I also have ADHD. That makes it increasingly worse.

I just really need help. The spirit is in my room at night and I cry everyday/night because it is trying to harm me. It also gives me intense pains. I am miserable. It also causing tension between me an, my parent.

On CHRISTMAS I hit my dad over 20 times or more. It is possessing me. It consumed me. Then the cops come over and I almost was arrested for assault ON CHRISTMAS. I feel terrible and, have no idea what to do. PLEASE HELP NOW! I'm begging you I need HELP! I feel weak and, my energy is gradually getting worse. This is hard on my boyfriend as well. He is really worried. I am to and am concerned as well. I love him. He also has a panic disorder due to his parents dying many years ago in a car accident. I am very worried. PLEASE HELP I'M BEGGING YOU!-Damian