I have never wished for my gifts to go away, but sometimes they can be a pain. I feel like ever since I told some of my very close friends about my gifts they, at first, think it's the coolest thing in the world and then use it to their advantages. After a while they get sick of it and they don't care anymore, sometimes they even get sick of me. So I can't talk to my friends.
My mom, who was a very gifted psychic died when I was two. I can't talk to my mom. My dad who is a little psychic, and who's gift's have died down over the years doesn't have a clue and I don't want to tell him. I can't talk to my dad. My sister who is seven years older than me doesn't believe in people who can do the things you and I can do. I can't talk to my sister. I can't think of anyone who else would be willing and trustworthy for me to talk to. But I need someone.
My gifts put me through pain, like many of you have also expressed. So a while ago I found this website, I saw how everyone was so open, and the responses were the same. I was hoping someone out there could help or relate etc. The most pressing thing I need help with is my out-of-body experiences, I just developed this gift and it is still unpredictable. I have about five a day, and it hurts. When I leave my body it can be painful, or painless, sometimes I am suffocated or strangled by an imaginary force. When I'm out I can't always control were I go, or how long I stay. When I finally come back it can be just like leaving and if someone interrupts me it could take longer the results can be bad, or dire. This can also make a scene, where scenes don't belong.
Thank you for taking your time to read this. If you can help me please leave me a comment.
Yours truly
Flann
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You mentioned that your out of body experiences are 'physically' painful for you? Are you afraid of these OBEs? It sounds like you've attached feelings of dread or discomfort to these experiences, so the pain is most likely a manifestation of your reluctance.
The first step you need to take is to change the feelings/thoughts you are attaching to you OBEs. This will probably take some time as it is much harder to break a habit than it is to start one. Maybe instead of thinking, "this isn't the time for this" or "this is going to be painful", start telling yourself things like, "this is an opportunity to stretch my limits, broaden my understanding" and "this is natural to me; this experience only brings feelings of contentment and fulfillment". The harder you train yourself to accept the OBEs, the easier it will get for you to deal with them.
Gaining better control over an ability usually calls for some sort of meditation, but bringing into consideration the opinion that meditation is usually the first step towards an OBE, we've hit a bit of speed bump. Thankfully, there are other ways to deal with controlling this kind of ability. You need something that will help keep you grounded. There are a couple things you can use to help you in this. One thing is to start carrying around a stone or a crystal, something you can keep on your person at all times whether it be around your neck on a simple piece of cord, or around your wrist in the same manner. Keeping a couple in your pocket will work just as well, you really only need something you can grasp onto at a moments notice. For this you could use a simple river rock or even a stone you've found in the backyard that you particularly like. If you want something a little more jazzy, go for a crystal, particularly those that are a bit more earthy, like black hematite and smoky quartz. Do a little research and pick a kind that you feel will get the job done.
Something else you could invest in is a small bottle of Clematis (Bach), it's a flower essence used for the first chakra and to help in grounding one to 'reality', into the body. Just dabbing a tiny bit onto your wrists in the morning or even on the stones you're carrying might help quite a bit.
As for someone to talk to, as you've no doubt seen, there a plenty on the net. And you're welcome to email me at a.bouie17 [at] gmail.com should you want to. However, I suggest you also find someone close to you to talk with. I say you bring the general subject of OBEs and psychics up to your father and see where the conversation goes from there. Most of us tend to forget how human our parents really are and that they've gone through just as much crap if not more than we have. You might just be surprised.
Now that I've initially written a novel... -_-