The White Screen Effect

About a year and a half ago I was in a very stressed out place in my life. It seemed that I was in a relationship that was entirely too difficult for me, but I was torn because I felt very strongly that there was a higher purpose for the relationship. When the two of us met it felt as if I had run into a friend that I hadn't seen in a long time. The two of us seemed instantaneously to fall head over heels, but because of the geographical distance and insecurity on both sides we had both become somewhat reticent. Still, I felt the Universe had brought this person into my life for a reason beyond happenstance or temporary relations. Some of this could be considered wishful thinking, but most of it was an inner knowing that was more or less relentless. There were plenty of easier, less stressful relationships out there for me to pursue, but I couldn't shake the sense of a deeper, more substantial connection that was being tested by the distance between us.

At this point, I had a dream that was incredibly simple and unremarkable but it stuck with me. In the dream I was staring at a blank white screen that seemed to be illuminated from behind or within. It was like staring into nothing but white sky, and it remained this way for a couple of minutes until I felt compelled to ask questions - both concerning the relationship I was in at the time. I asked my questions (this occurred telepathically; as far as I know I didn't actually speak in my sleep) and, to my absolute shock, I heard a very clear, loud voice answering each question as I posed it. They weren't long, drawn out answers. For each question the answer was simply "Yes", but the nature of the questions didn't require anymore than that.

At first I didn't think much of the dream. The relationship seemed to fizzle out because of the distance, and because this directly conflicted with the answers I received in my dream I disregarded the experience entirely. But I always continued to feel a connection with this person and in the year that passed we both attempted to date quite a number of people, both separated by a five hour drive, and neither of us could stop thinking about the other. Very recently we've found one another again and have decided to attempt this once more, and I find myself reflecting on the answers I received in the dream with a new interest. It appears after all this time that the answers received in the dream may actually have been true as the situation I was inquiring about seems to keep coming back into the picture.

On a side note, I have had other strange dreams that have proven to be prophetic when it counts. I work in hospitality and I dreamt one night that one of our guests had died. I had no idea who the guest was. The dream consisted of me standing in the lobby of the hotel with a man dressed in a clown suit. The dream seemed to happen in frames because in the next frame there was a pool of blood on the floor in front of him. In the last frame he was laying on the floor where the blood had been. I knew that he had died. The following night when I went in to work I saw a handful of emergency vehicles idling outside the front entrance of the hotel, and when I went inside I was told that a gentleman who had arrived that afternoon had just had a coronary event in his room. As they rushed him out of the hotel it was clear the man had died, they were simply going through the motions until they could get him to the hospital. I didn't know the accuracy of the clown imagery until I heard friends of the gentleman who were also at the hotel talking about his fun, carefree attitude, always wishing to create a smile on the faces of the people he met.

So, obviously, two different extremes - one happy and one altogether disturbing (for me). I have had other dreams, but these two are the ones that particularly haunt me. I've had other experiences, in waking life, that are hard to explain. I'm interested in knowing ways to access this type of information intentionally instead of having to wait until my guides or the Universe determine I need to hear what they are trying to say.