Several years ago I began to have precognitive dreams. At first, they frightened me, but I have learned to accept them. They were not symbolic dreams. What I dreamed about was the event exactly as I would see it in the future. They were never very meaningful either- mostly snippets of mundane conversation. Nothing particularly exciting was happening at that point in my life, though, so it only makes sense that I was seeing mediocrity in my dreams.
Now it's been months since I've had a precognitive dream. Several dreams have come true in this time period. At this point, I don't think that any previous dreams have gone unfulfilled.
I think this may have started with a particularly bad relationship. I have broken it off, but it left me with a definite sense of pessimism. Since then, I have had no dreams. I'm not sure I believe that 'bad feelings' can influence dreams, though, so I'm reluctant to say that this is the cause.
What I'm really worried about is this. If the dreams have stopped, perhaps it's because I have no future left to see. I'm afraid that I cannot see the future anymore because my life will soon be over. This sounds preposterous, after all I'm still in high school, I've never had any major disease, I don't smoke, drink, or do drugs, and I don't drive.
Is it possible that my pessimistic attitude is interfering with my ability to have these dreams? I used to lucid dream, and that too has dwindled. I don't want to believe that I might die soon, but I have had periods of pessimism and depression before and they haven't interfered with my abilities to this extent.
Is it common for psychic abilities to disappear for months at a time? I've never had any other abilities besides precognition, and so I can't tell if there's an overall decrease in my energy or if something is interfering with precognition specifically.
Any comments are appreciated.
Oh, and pegs, I hope my 'symbolic' dreams aren't premonitions. The past week I've dreamt of my entire family dying in a nuclear blast, guerrilla warfare in Europe, a man covered in acid, and a girl being raped by a skeleton. If those are predictions of the future then I have every right to be scared for my life. 😜