Hello. I am new to this site and I am unsure of how to start this. Okay I will try it this way. I keep hearing lots of voices talking at once but no one will be around me. I try to hear what the voices are saying but I can not distinguish one from the other. At times I have heard my name very clear but that is about it. At times I believe the voices are spirits and other times I think it is just my imagination. I am wanting to know if anybody has had a similar experience? When my son was just a few months old I was driving my car down the road and I heard a voice tell me to slow down and out of the corner of my eye I saw a man dressed in black from head to toe but I could not see his face. I slowed down and my tire blew out. Ever since then I started hearing the voices and that was 12 years ago. I have had dreams where they seemed so real and I would wake up so tired like I had not even been asleep. I do not know what was happening. I have actually been afraid to tell anybody exactly what has been happening afraid that they would think I was crazy. My family does not believe in anything like this so my dilemma. If anybody has any suggestions on how I can learn to listen to those voices please let me know.
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Since I can remember I have been an extremely fearful person especially as a child. I was aware as a child that it wasn't normal to be so fearful but could really do nothing about it. I would have nightmares on a daily bases and was chronically afraid of going to sleep. I have also always been very aware of other peoples emotions and have always been greatly effected by them. I, now as an adult, hate going to places like the grocery store because they often seem stressful and overwhelming.
When I was 17 I moved into my fathers house and frequently started having the same "dream" night after night. Every time I would be falling asleep, in that moment when one is aware they soon will fall asleep, I would suddenly feel panicked and terrified of actually falling asleep. I would feel a strange surge of what I can only explain as electrical energy or a vibrating sensation come over me followed by a soft static sound. I would suddenly feel very heavy and no matter what I did couldn't move to wake myself up. This happened for years and would sometimes stop me from going to sleep at all.
Once I got married and moved out of my dads house, although similar dreams would still occur, they became less frequent and started to change. I would still feel this strong sense of electricity coming over me while in this state of being half asleep and half awake, and still not be able to awake out of it, but the noises I heard were not the same. Now it was just quiet.
Within the last year however, my half awake half asleep dreams have changed again. The feeling of electrical energy and not being able to wake up have not changed but I now have started to hear people talking. It usually just sounds like I am in the midst of a large crowd, not really hearing anymore than a few clear random wards, but just being aware of the fact that people are speaking. The last time this happened, I did actually hear a women talking to me as clear as day. It happened while falling asleep one afternoon on our couch. While I was falling asleep, I felt the electricity surge come over me, I suddenly was unable to wake up and heard the crowd of voices in the background. While trying to wake myself out of it I suddenly heard a lady telling a story about either her or her husband. She seemed to be telling it like whoever she was talking to in her story was on the phone. "She started to say how it was just a minor heart problem, and everyone new it was a minor heart problem." At this point I was able to open my eyes just a crack and saw a shadow go over a wall across the room. I then again began to panic and try to wake myself up until I eventually did. Once awake, the room was quiet and there was nobody outside talking either. This happened about two weeks ago and I haven't yet had another "half awake, half asleep dream" but have had something else start more frequently happening. A few times during random parts of the day, I will have a memorable thought/daydream. What is weird about them is they aren't so far over life altering things. For example, one I had the other morning was "today at work I will have to go to Abbeys program" (I am a nanny) I had no knowledge of any upcoming school programs so I sort of just shrugged it off as a strange thought. Later that morning on the list left by the mother of things to do it said "Abbey would really like if you would come to her school program today." Since then a few more things have happened like this but I don't really know why.
Anyway, sorry for making this so long and would love to hear similar experiences or know more why this is happening.
Thanks, Sara