About two years ago I was hanging out with my friend, who happens to be a girl. We were just watching t.v. And I felt like something was wrong, but she was smiling laughing; talking about what we were watching. A normal person would look at her and think nothing was wrong. But I could tell by the look in her eyes, I could see sadness. So I asked her, "What's wrong?" she answered nothing. I asked about 5 more times. She still answered, "Nothing, Adam." But I still knew she was lying. So after one more time, she finally broke down and started tearing up. She said she was sad over one of my best friends that she liked. Worrying that he liked another girl. And I know him very well, so it wasn't like he was a kid I didn't even know. But during our talk she would start out talking and pause for a second or two and I would finish her thought, which wasn't just a one word answer. I remember her asking me, "How do you know what I'm going to say?" All I could come up with was that it was just normal for me. It just comes to me naturally. I don't have to guess or question my thoughts.
The thing is, you have to understand that this girl is very secret about her feelings. So for her to cry and for me to know that something was wrong is very different. Not many people would be able to notice. I've also always been very good at talking to people about their problems. It's so hard to fit everything in this little story 'cause I have so many instances and feelings and things I can't explain that overwhelm me. I wish I could find the answer to my questions. Sadly, everyone I talk to always tries to come up with a normal reason, or an excuse per say, why it happens or why I feel that way. However, after they give me their opinion I know that that's not it. I've already thought of every reason why I'm not an empath or psychic just because I want to make sure I'm not just crazy or delusional.
I must inform you that when I was in about 6th or 7th grade, I was depressed, I hated school, and started really feeling other peoples emotions. I was always feeling like I was inside them, feeling what they were feeling. So the doctor/therapist had me take a survey. I guess he wanted to see if I was suicidal or crazy or something. It turns out that when they got done observing the results, he came back in the room and said to my mom "Your son is very, very emotionally intelligent," Of course I was like, "What does that mean?" Then he stated that I had a gift. I still wasn't quite sure what he meant. I thought he meant like an X-Men gift. So he went on explaining what it was. After he explained everything to me, I started remembering and noticing signs and instances that had happened in the past, or the weird things I would feel.
Another thing is I can't stand crowds or large groups of people. I have premonitions and about 75% of the time they come true. They can be about anything. I know it's not just intuition or a gut feeling because it comes to me so easily and I know without a doubt that I'm right. I'll try to tell someone about something that is going to happen, but they don't believe me. Then when event is over I always tell them ha ha told you so. And of course all they say is that I was lucky and just guessed. But after many times of me being right you notice them starting to really believe me when I say something's going to happen.
I'm also very, very good at telling time without even looking at a clock for 3 hours. I don't know if it's just good observation or if I can really just know what time it is. Sometimes I'll be right on the spot, to the hour, minute and everything. But lately, it's been going away, I can't do it anymore, as if I'm being blocked. It's been that way with everything lately. I feel there's a wall of some sort inside my mind blocking me from the things I used to be able to do. I feel almost dead inside. Empty, like my mind is gone. I know I'm not depressed or suicidal 'cause I don't want to die. I don't know if it's because I'm not being in school and lost pretty much all my friends and I'm not being active? I feel like my mind is dormant or I'm thinking too much. I got my mind in some sort of a hole and I can't get it back out.
Sometimes I even think it's genetic because my mom is the same way, if not more advanced, if you could say, in this area. The only people who really understand me and believe me are my mom and my girlfriend. But anyways, I'm sorry for this being so long. There are just so many questions that I have that need to be answered. So if anybody can help me I would be very thankful.