Premonitions Of Death?

I had my first premonition when I was 5. I had a neighbor who was like a grandfather to me. Because I was so young, it seemed like this feeling like something was going to happen lasted forever, but I don't know. The day he died I had walked up to the top of the stairs. Normally, I would have just went into his room, but something turned me around. I felt so guilty for so long. I kept telling my parents that I knew something was going to happen, but they didn't believe me. He didn't contact me in my dreams until I was 14. He led me to safety. After that, it has always been the same dream. One of my good friends was killed that year. She didn't contact me until I was 16, but told me not to worry she was ok. A childhood friend that my sister and I grew up with also died that year at 21 of an aneurism. He contacted me via a dream when I was 22. Once again, he told me he was ok. His parents and his 7 year old nephew died about a year later. I took it pretty hard. They also contacted me in the same dream... Once again telling me they were ok. I used to see white orbs and feel things around me when I was 20-24. It came and went. I tried to develop it... Just couldn't. I got that paranoid impending doom feeling again at around 29. It lasted for about three months. I had the urge to go see my grandfather so I did and The feeling usually is strong when I am around that person. My pap pap lasted two weeks and I took care of him. He had a dream about mashed potatoes. The night he died, I wanted mashed potatoes so bad. My ex had cleaned out my fridge from that week before he left and put KFC mashed potatoes... Still in the container on top. I had made a pizza and went to throw the box away. It is so gross, but I couldn't resist the mashed potatoes. They were on top and I just don't know what came over me so I called the nursing home just to check. I got directed to the wrong floor. The lady said he was doing ok. Not 10 minutes later, I got a call to come right away. I saw a blue orb cross the room, but was just in too much of a tizzy to put it together. Driving like a maniac I finally got there and he died as I was in the elevator. A few weeks later my ex and I smelled V05 and apple pie. He never believed me before... Because I wasn't making and apple pie in the single family home and my grandfather was the one who always wore v05 in his hair. My ex was freaked out and said I need to start controlling the people who came around me. I laughed so hard about that. The same overwhelming feeling came over me with my best friend only it only lasted a week. His cancer took a turn for the worst. I was supposed to bring baby wipes by. I can remember just praying for some miracle when I saw a green orb. I hesitated calling his mom the next morning, but was still hopeful when I got the news. I knew it already. I saw his apparition, but without legs. For the past week, I started feeling a presence, getting that paranoid impending doom feeling again. However, this time I see orbs. They have been black orbs. They are at my job, my house, my boyfriend's house, my family's house. After I realized I am not crazy, I started calling it a gift. I just wish I could figure out how to develop it... Why it changes. I did change something this time. I have never told anybody what I experienced until after the fact. I just feared they would think I was crazy. This time, I did speak up. I am seeing less black orbs and now more white orbs. Any ideas why?

same is with me. Please someone help me. M really freaked out. Its since grade 3 or so.

First, my Grandfather visited me in a dream at the moment of death, when I was 14 yo.
My dream was him very close-up, he spoke to me and then gone. I awoke and looked at the clock 3:23a.m. My father woke me in the morning (6am) to notify me that my parents were leaving to go to the hospital because my Grandfather had died.
I asked what time and they told me 3:23 am.
Had "bad feelings" for about a month before my father passed away. Didn't quite know it was him until the day before his death. I felt like a horible human being! I asked him to stay home from work and talk with me. He proceeded to tell me he couldn't and gave me eplicit instrustions to take of my mother and that he didn't think he would be alive to much longer, feeling the same way, couldn't tell him I felt the same way. Still feel guilt about his death 20 years later 😢

I know what your going through. If anyone is going die that I know or my family knows I dream about it. Sometimes months ahead of time. It doesn't even have to about people either sometimes its a pets death. Its hard to know when someone is going to die. I've always had this but I only really opened my eyes to it a couple of years ago.
My youngest premintion I re-call is in the fourth grade.

I know about the deaths of people about a week before they happen. It is very spooky, especially when they visit in my dreams. I now just try to imagine that I can be useful in a reserved way to the families of the deceased. (I don't tell people about it, but I have offered to be there for them, should they suddenly need me.) I have relayed messages from the deceased to these relatives, if I think they will understand, though sometimes I do not entirely understand the message myself. Evidently, they are relevant to those close to the deceased.
Do not be afraid of being able to align your 'just knowing things' with what is happening... It should not be any more strange than being able to smell something burning in the kitchen. Because this kind of sensitivity has been part of my whole life, I have found that regular meditation helps me be able to direct or focus my intended knowledge, which is greatly more helpful in tuning out! I would also recommend a dream diary, to help you remember your dreams. I find that charting my dreams helps me be in tune with my underlying stuff, so my own clutter doesn't get in the way of a low level general awareness. (It's like, do you remember hearing the birds chirping today? You know they were but did you hear them?) Anyhow, best wishes and be good to yourself.

Having visions in death can be very ironic when it comes to seeing in in dreams rather than a vision.

When you sleep your spirit leaves your body and mind and returns when you wake up. Sleep paralysis is when your spirits is having a delay in returing and your mind and body wakes up. Without your spirit there may have a problem with being possessed by spirits. Your spirit is trying to return to your body and might have a problem if its moving so that's a reason I believe why you can't move.

Dreams I believe is what your spirit is doing and your mind is getting glimpses of what is going on and everything may not be right. You can dream you lose your remote to the t.v the next day but what gets lost is the keys to your house. Or seeing a friend of family member die could be your neighbors family or friends.

But if your dreams are more accurate you should try astral projecting. That's when your mind goes with your spirit rather than leaving the mind with the body. So if you do this you would get a vision doing this rather than pregonition. You can get more detail on what happens before what occurs and better memory and can serve as a better aid if you want to help in the visions you are seeing.

Scary. I've seen two deaths before in my dreams and they happen the very next day.
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