First of all I want to apologize for my English, as long as I don't practice it too much lately.
Well, this is my story. I will try to explain myself properly in order to find someone here who can give me an answer:
One year ago (about these dates) I had a dream. In that dream I saw my mother nearly to fall down from our balcony. When I saw her I run immediately to pick up her and save, and I did.
Last June I had the same dream, but this time I couldn't save her; I woke up in the middle of this nightmare, crying, so I couldn't save her that time.
At the beginning of last October the doctors discovered an strange type of cancer in my mother (Lung Sarcoma). All we tried to save her didn't work. She died in 3 months and 15 days (January 17th).
Now I wonder if my dreams were a precognition.
A week after she died I dream with her again. She was sitting down in a sofa (not at home, in another place I don't know) and she had much light around her. Suddenly she moved and sat down in other sofa and when I tried to touch her she said to me: do not touch me. Do no touch me. The same she said the last 2 days before she died at the clinic when I wanted to touch her.
My mother was an excellent and caring mother, beloved person by all our friends, neighbors and family. I loved her so much and I miss her a lot. Sometimes I think how to live without see her everyday and I wonder at the same time if she is here with me, although it is impossible for me to see her.
All my dreams use to be vivid, real and fascinating sometimes, above all when I wake up in the morning and I can remember mostly of them. But this time my dreams with my mother became a nightmare with a sad end.
I hope anyone of you can help me, and give some light to my questions.
Thanks and a big hug to anyone who can read this.
Murmuri
I am so sorry for your loss, I was 28 when my mom passed. It took me along time to get over the feeling of not having her to talk too. But a few days after she passed she came to me but not alone, my grandparents were with her. I can't say enough on how happy I felt inside to see them just knowing that they were able to do this for me it was the best gift I have ever received from the other side. I know its hard for you right now but take your time when your ready try to focus on all the good times you both shared especially the funny things that made you both laugh out loud. You know the more I did this I felt that my mom was laughing with me. And yes I too had premonitions of my mother getting sick, but there was nothing I could do the dreams were so different I couldn't figure out what was going on. When my dad passed I did the same thing I pretty much went through the grieving process a little easier just know that they never give up in trying to see you.
Take care