First of all I will start off on a personal note telling you a little about my personal relationship. I have a boyfriend with whom I have been with for 12 years and we have three young children together. We are very close and get along very well. Of course we have had ups and downs, what relationship doesn't? But ours are far and few between. We treasure each other and believe in one another. He has been going away to another providence to work for a few years. I trust him completely. It is not in his beliefs to betray me and he is very old fashion with love. Has no time for cheating or people who cheat. Telling you this will make a little bit of sense on how I felt about my dream.
In March, '08 I had a dream about a strange woman sitting on my boyfriend's lap and I am sitting on a chair beside them feeling very angry and confused as to why she is sitting on my loves lap. The woman was shouting at me, telling me that I never gave my boyfriend attention, I don't make him feel sexy or wanted, etc. When she was finished telling me off. (I guess) my boyfriend proceeded to tell me that he loved this woman and wanted to be with her and that if I don't like it I can leave. That is the way it was going to be. She was giving him what he wants and that I wasn't. He loved me but he loved her too. So I could stay or go.
I woke up feeling very disgusted with myself for even dreaming such a thing. I felt guilty. I never in 12 years thought that he would do such a thing. I could not understand why those thoughts were even in my head.
A few weeks or so later I told my boyfriend about the dream and how I felt guilty about it. He laughed, "No, don't be silly, you have nothing to worry about. You are the only one for me." and he continued to reassure me. Of course I believed him. And I really had nothing to worry about at that time.
He came home from work in May for a week. Things were wonderful, could not have been any better. Then he went back. Long story short he did meet a woman only a few days upon returning to work. He fell in love with her. He stayed there with her for 4 1/2 months before he came home again. He gave excuse after excuse on why he had to stay at work. Of course this time when he returned I sensed something. I went digging through personal things and found out.
My love betrayed me just like in my dream. But of course now that I know about the affair, it is over between them, and he says that he only thought he loved her at the time. Needless to say I was devastated.
Now I dreamt this two months before it started to happen. He told me that he remembered my dream shortly after the affair started. But he still continued. What does all of this mean?
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