During my adult life and in particular recently, I have experienced de javu. I have had flashbacks to vivid dreams that I had as a child.
Every place that I have worked (4) was a dream that I had as a child. People at my place of work, the buildings, the routes and means of transport to get to work and experiences that I have since encountered were in my dreams as a child.
Every home that I have lived in (4) was the same as the houses that I visited in my dreams as a child.
Decisions that I made and feelings that I experienced in my dreams I have subsequently experienced.
These flashback are becoming more frequent in the last six months.
I had a difficult childhood and was physically abused by my family and the environment was stressful for me. I would say that my life now is also stressful, with work and family life and I'm not sure if the stress is a trigger for theses flashbacks.
The flashbacks themselves occur at all times of the day when I'm awake and often I drift into a very deep sleep and wake up with a vivid recall of the dream that I have had.
I was hoping to get some help on interpreting these dreams and experiences and maybe be able to control them.
Any assistance greatly appreciated.
I live with and have talked to many people that do not experience NpTA. I am told I am odd or they just have no idea what that would feel like. I can only imagine it is like an individual being born without visual or aural senses. Trying to describe to them what what it mean to see or hear. Trying to describe what it means to a normal what it means to have the ability to see through time.
I have found that if I am able to sleep longer in the mornings I can force NpTA to happen regularly. This had been helpful. I get a second chance at a bad choice or decision or I can allow time to flow it's expected course.
There have been periods where NpTA has not occurre for weeks to months. At times like this there is either much stress in my life or I might have missed sleeping in regularly. In times like this I get really nervouse, the concern about I I am about to die surfaces. Also, not having the NpTA connection/feeling is unnerving and is (to me) like being blind.
One thing you mentioned, was about being abused. I too was sexually, mentally, and physically abused until I was 12 years old. I can remember performing a game of removal to cope with the moment or pain. I think this activity may have made a connection to my future self where things might b better. Maybe it is just my familial recent anf historical facination with psychic abilities. Maybe it is a generic function where my brain is tapping into an unused portion while I am sleeping. Whatever it is, I don't ever want to be without it.
If anyone would like to talk more with me about this please write. Swmakiney [at] comcast.net