I have what I suppose one would call "visions". By this I mean out of nowhere a random, off the wall thought will pass through my mind in just a second, then leave. This thought will consist of a single simple sentence and a picture of those involved. The pictures are never sad or upsetting, but the thoughts are. Within twenty-four hours my vision becomes reality. These occurred a handful of times as a preteen and teen, then they went away for almost ten years, and now I am getting them again.
When I was younger, my experiences related mostly to animals. One experience occurred when I was looking out the window at my father's house one evening. I saw the neighbor's dog and simply thought, "I will never see that dog again." with a picture of the dog running through the yard. It was hit by a car and died the following morning.
Another vision happened when I was sitting at the kitchen table at my dad's house. The thought, "There will be one less cat when I go home (to my mother's house)." with a picture of my three cats. The next day my Mom called and informed me that one of our cats had passed. These freaked me out a little, but they were never terrifying to me.
Between then and now I have frequently gotten what I call "heartaches", which is what they feel like. But with these feelings I also get the feeling of panic that something terrible has happened. When these occur I call my immediate family to make sure that everything is fine, and it's usually not. Often my mother is in the hospital for heart problems or my grandfather or grandmother has went to the hospital for some health problem, and when it's not them it's the family of someone I'm close to.
My most recent experience is what has brought me here. This past week I had a vision, the thought, "Irene (my Stepmother) has cancer." with the picture of her and my father at their new home. I told my husband about the experience and called my father a few hours later just to see how they were doing. I never asked about their health, but towards the end of the conversation he went over their schedule for the week which included a trip to the doctor to get a re-examination. I asked what for and he told me that the doctor thought he found something in her mammogram. A test that I had no idea she had recently gotten.
Now, I am convinced that she has cancer, we are waiting on the results which should be in later this week. I don't know why I have these visions, where they come from, or how to control them. They are getting very personal and scary, and I want to know what to do with them. My mother and husband believe my intuitions and are also alarmed by them. Where do I go from here?
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