Do I Have Psychic Abilities Or Am I Just Making All This Up?

I'm not sure if I could control wind, rain, and street lights (don't ask), I'm an empath, or if I'm just making all this up.

Back when I was little, every time I talked when I was outside, a breeze would come. The only time that didn't happen was when I told my cousins and brother and we all started shouting in hopes of a paper airplane we made would come down from someone's roof. Eventually, I forgot about it, and went on with life until 8th grade, where I got so lonely I started talking to the weather. The rain and wind always "had my back". Eventually, I learned to control it a bit; however, I could "control" it better when I'm going through intense emotions. When I'm feeling immense burden, a gust of wind would come or it would start pouring rain, and when I'm okay, I could only make a breeze or make it rain slightly harder or softer by thinking of rather painful or pleasant things. They still seem like friends to me, since it feels like they still have a mind of their own. I can also sing to street lights, which I get this feeling of the street lights enjoying it and letting me go. If I don't sing, it's not motivated to turn green. I've manipulated it to turn red and green a few times, although when I'm lacking energy, it's hard to control anything - wind, rain, or street lights. Like I've said, it's easier to "control" things when it reflects my mood. Once I got extremely sad due to realizing that a friend wasn't in my class (I was going through depression and I relied on her to feel better. We had different friend groups at that time so class was the only place where I could meet her). It then started literally pouring outside. When I calmed down, the rain calmed down as well (it didn't stop though). I tried making it pour again, but the best I could do was make it rain harder. Also, it tends to get windier when I'm tapping into my thoughts, and there's no breeze when I'm aware of my surroundings. It's weird, but it's harder to control when I'm more aware.

I've always been empathetic before I could even remember. TV was the only exception to not cry when I see someone else cry because I knew they were faking it and that they were okay after the movie/show. Now, I feel like a sponge. I soak up what others are feeling around me. If they're happy, I all of the sudden feel energetic. If they're frustrated, I feel like kicking a locker. I can't help it. I also have a thing where - especially with art - I can just tell if you put in effort and care. It's pretty obvious when someone's artwork is for money or if you actually enjoyed it/wanted to move people, but it goes beyond visual art. I don't listen to much pop songs because I can just feel their thirst for fame and money when listening to them (unlike aspiring artists, whom I listen to all the time) and when I eat something, I always avoid restaurants and foods made from factories as much as possible (except when recovering from an eating disorder) and always preferred homemade foods. I don't know, they taste ten times better, and I can taste love and passion and care. It's weird. I'm not sure what type of empathy it is but I know everyone's intentions behind anything. However, I can't catch a liar. It would take a human amount of time to learn that you've lied to me. I also can't telepathically know what you're thinking. But if you hug me, I can feel if it's genuine or if you're just trying to make me happy. My feelings of people's intentions have also affected my emotions if it hasn't been affected by soaking up people's feelings (to clear things up, if everyone around me is on autopilot and is sitting in their desk doing "nothing"). For example, if you have the intention of making someone laugh, I can't help but laugh, or at least giggle. It doesn't matter how funny the joke actually is, if you unintentionally tell me that you enjoy people smiling at your jokes, I'll obey your intentions.

I'm not sure. I am intuitive, but I'm more average compared to many intuitive people I've met. I have gone through depression and psychosis, and I'm not sure if this will affect if I have psychic abilities or not. I'm also not sure if I'm just lacking control of psychic abilities or if all of this is a coincidence (I'm mainly talking about controlling the wind, rain, and street lights, because there will be some times where it has a mind on its own and I'm unable to control it.). I've never had a vision or a future dream, nor have I ever predicted an event unless everyone else could guess that the event would happen. Am I truly a psychic or is this just my imagination?

If you made it this far, thanks for taking the time to read this. Hope you have a great day!:)