Alien Empath Life Struggle

It's my first post here on this site and I decided to write my story as I've read about so many similar experiences as I've been having throughout my life. Ever since I was a little kid I always felt different, as if I was an alien, I could never fit in and felt very sick around people. I was constantly trying to resolve this what I once believed was a psychical block that I had around people until I came to conclusion that it actually might not be a problem but a symptom of being pretty sensitive. Being with people is always hard for me as I completely absorb their energy and emotions, I can't absolutely feel myself, I get totally overwhelmed by their feelings, emotions and even thoughts. For example if I feel some person is being envious of me and sends emotions of hatred and envy towards me I immediately feel guilty for being whatever that person is lacking and then feel bad for causing someone's frustration. It's like whenever I'm around someone I kind of unintentionally tune to them and feel like they feel, even perceive myself as they perceive me and it's making me literally sick. Next thing I began to experience since I was 16-17 is seeing auras or plasmatic bodies I'm not sure, around people and objects, the colors are always light-yellow or light green, also I see sparkles of lights and colorful flashes randomly, or a golden shiny kind of tangled thing above people's heads. It's fun to watch it and during last weeks it got stronger especially that light body around people... I see it moving when the person moves for example hand much clearer and it's funny that it's always a sec. Behind the physical movement. Another interesting experience is that when I'm relaxing but not sleeping but let's say on my way to falling asleep I can hear random conversations of people I don't know. Things they say are random like " Oh yeah totally" or " this bag is too small". Sometimes I think those are people having conversations somewhere near my house or in my town and I accidentally tune to that while being in deeper state and I kind of receive it through ether. I'm not sure who I am, but I've always felt like an alien, this world has always felt like a strange place for me. Typical earth life is totally weird for me, I also have trouble with relationships as I'm extremely careful around people and for example romantic relationships are nonexistent for me. I can't help it but somewhere deep inside I beware the people. I simply do not trust them at all. The way they think and feel is totally out of my world. Several people I know who are psychic, medium or empaths told me I had an alien intelligence inside in me and that my home is very far from Earth, and also that my energy is way different than any other they ever perceived, some healer even refused to work with me as she said she has never encountered such energy before, so she was kind of afraid to work with it. So I do not really know, but what I know is that life is a real struggle for me in every possible way as I simply refuse the typical programs and life expectations everyone in this society perceives as "normal" plus my sensing of energies is making me sometimes even physically sick. Hope you'll like my story and maybe I'll be glad if you could share some tips how not to be so absorbed by emotions of others because I will probably go mad one day. Thanks:)