Spiritual Journey, Ready Or Not

I'm reluctant to fully embrace my abilities, because with it comes a journey into the unknown. Also, strange occurrences start happening every time I start searching again. My grandfather was a Taoist priest/Shaman. Because I was raised as a Christian, I always thought that his practices were "evil." He helped spirits of the dead pass on. I may have inherited some spiritual abilities from my ancestors, as there were Taoist priests/Shamans from both sides of my parents lineages. I've had dreams of this grandfather. He is always happy and looks to be enjoying the afterlife. It was surprising, because I thought he would have ended up in hell.

It wasn't until I was a teen did I begin questioning things. I had my first "known" out of body experience. A spirit tried to communicate with me, during this time. I blocked it out of my mind, until I could no longer hear it. I was terrified. I didn't want to acknowledge it, because if I did, it would be that much harder to walk out the door after opening the gateway to communication.

As a young adult, I practiced removing my consciousness from this waking reality into the next. It came naturally for me, as I am a light sleeper. Mind awake, body asleep. I was self taught. Sleep paralysis, shadow creatures, invisible forces that make it almost impossible to move forward in a projection, I've faced them all. I got to the point where I could get pass these things and travel to other places. There's nothing like flying and freeing one's mind.

I stopped actively forcing myself to project, up until recently. The reason was, that I started having many false awakenings. So many, that it became difficult to differentiate what was real and what wasn't. I saw some things that shouldn't be there, as I would awake and drift off to sleep again. One was a glowing glyph node on my bedroom wall. Another was a man watching me fall asleep through my doorway.

I've had one precognitive dream this year, that really got me thinking again. In this dream, I was on the beach. A giant emerges from the ocean, steps onto the shore, and continues walking forward. I woke up. Soon after that morning a earthquake hit my town, originating from the ocean floor. Maybe it was a coincidence, or maybe it was something else.

I've always been able to "read" people. Positive or negative, I am highly sensitive to feeling other peoples' thoughts. I would love to hear your thoughts.