Trying To Understand If My Visions Are Real

I have something similiar. I live in LA. Email me, let's compare stories and guide each other. Desertgirl29 [at] msn.com

Iziel, I went through things like you're describing. Let me share this with you. I found that I was accurate with having the psychic ability, but the details were sometimes off making it appear as if it was just an abnormal way of thinking to others. Later, I find that I was right in it's basis, that there was something to what I was saying. The Zener Cards and the ESP tests correspond with my abilites. It shows a little less than 50% and that's about right for me. That's good enough for me and for the people around me, but to others outside my circles, I don't even try to explain anything. I give them an abstract instead, meaning that if I have a strong feeling about something or see something, I give the highlights of the situation and not the details. Sometimes I take the brunt of being known as crazy. And I don't mind because I know there's something to what I've said, even if people don't what to take alook at it in depth. They always look back and say "hmmm..." I've had the ability for over 20 years and I've found when I have the strong psychic experiences, I need to take the time to really clear my mind afterwards. I calm the compelling feelings to tell someone and gain my composure allowing me to refocus because sometimes I'm a mess. I don't meditate inside, I always need the outdoors, to be able see the world around me and to know that despite what I've just picked up on the world is alright. And if the premonition pertains to a person, place or a situation and the feelings are still with me and I can't shake the feeling, I call whoever is involved because I'm a firm believer of bringing question to things. I've been known to talk about strangers that I've never met and called people that I haven't talked to in years. I never give the full details of a premonition, I just listen and see what's falling in place then I tell them in some way to becareful (or congratulations). Just telling someone heightens their awareness of there own situation of what's going on around them, then they can make the changes they need to make. If I had a premonition about specifically someone having a baby I say "who's having a baby?," jokingly and it's usually the one I knew would, if it's with death and dying, this scares the heck out of me, I tend to either ignore my own feelings or keep calling the person asking if they're alright as if I'm trying to hang on to them as if it's going to prevent something from happening. I had a psychic experience where I was right, 20 years ago and it left scars. Because of this I try not to bring my compelling fear or needs to be secure into play and I have a habit of letting go of people I love, I just say "how's so and so?" or if it's at a site "ohh, what happened here?" My abilites also prompt me to go places or change courses suddenly and that seems odd and it prompts people to ask "what is she doing?" I just say I had a feeling. Kind of like you going to L.A. Suddenly. Sometimes one can't answer the why's, you just know that you have to go (or stay). And I usually return just like you did. But one thing I've found is that I wasn't ever wrong in making the change, just like you weren't wrong in going and coming back. And there's been times where things did happen that I had no premonitions about. I'm sure you'll find that too. All of this was hard to interpret until I viewed my psychic abilities in a generalized way rather than tring to maintain the need for accurate details. And that's O.K., just like you may find, you don't mind your details being off sometimes. It's a relief. Using psychic ability sometimes appears as a life of the abnormal or chaos to others because we're abstracting to see where the premonitions fits in and what it means on an entirely diferent level that what people refer to as normal (it's a different way of thinking with it's own lifestyle). If our details are off there's no clarity other than we know something, we feel something, we see something and if it's really clear, where do you turn, it's not like one can pick up the phone and say "hey, I just got this premonition, are one your planes down?" We have to wait to read the headlines. The general field of science doesn't have the capability to help explain any of this (and their still on 100 year old beliefs with common diagnosies.) As you become familiar with your abilities and your capabilites, you'll find a clamness to it all and an acceptance for a common ground for it all to occur on, such as a spiritual path for your own inner peace or giving readings, etc. What I found to work is that I had to narrow it and find the aspect of paranaormal that interested me the most and once I did that, I found I fit in. My basis of belief is experience brings understanding. I feel you'll be alright.