There Is A Battlefield Of Feelings Around Me

I recommend you to ask shi tzu123 (sorry for the inconvenience user shi tzu but this site keeps correcting me to shiatzu123). He/she seems to know about these stuff and sounds kind and helpful. And Annea, I experience the same thing like you. However we're kind of different to begin with. I have none of shadows around me when the feelings come. It's more like sudden extreme energy blocks all my senses, almost like attacking me in the core. All feelings become one such as dread, grief, relentlessness, madness and so many more I can't quite describe something like almost all kind of feelings become entirely different thing. Usually my body goes really cold as well and the feeling and urge to scream and escape become too overwhelming to bear. At this state I'm no longer able to think, all my mind quickly begins to fade away, all I can do is just to feel. In extreme case, my breath gets hitched as if oxygens trying to get its way out of my body. Really suffocating if you ask me. I think there's several second where I go blind like when the feeling reaches its peak all of sudden I can't remember my surrounding. Either my hypothesis is right or I just barely concious at the moment I'm not so sure about it myself. And the energy seems to repulsed by me maybe that's why I feel its violent attack on my being (merely a rough guess). Contradiction happens when at the same time I somehow feel some part of the energy wants to get in as well. It first started about two years ago when I was 16. It happened when I was in public, one friend of mine asked me if I feel there's something wrong with my eyes I should tell her right away. I didn't understand what she was trying to say and decided to look into mirror myself. I bit freaked out by the fact that my eyes changed color to bright amber. Few hours before I already felt the 'battlefield' but nothing seemed to happen that time. When I found out about my amber eyes I still felt the raging war but somehow it became more tamed and almost sync with my own energy. Sort of. I still felt the urges to run, escape and break free though. The intensity was same as the very first second of the attack but more manageable you could say. For your information, my body temperature and my breath relatively normal then. I didn't get any metabolism change like I do now. Except my eyes. It was the only thing that changed. I did a little research about the stuff and found out that eyes may change due the fluctuation of emotions. I put my trust in it since it's scientific and seems to have many real evidences behind it although it also stated that the change won't be very dramatic and significant as mine. My other reason to trust it is because I can't deny that when the attack happened I suddenly became completely overwhelmed and taken by the intrusive yet foreign feelings. Obviously it fits with the 'fluctuation' description. I have to say that my first experience is the most powerful and raw attack/battlefield I've ever felt. The feelings were just entirely... I don't have words to describe it. Meditation doesn't help so much I think, because the attack is only occasional so even if there's any improvement I won't notice it. I also have distinct feeling that something particular triggers those attacks. However I can't lay my fingers on it still. Everything remains mystery to me until now. Too many questions gone unanswered. I eventually became too tired and decided to give it a break. But it's not the case anymore since I found your post a couple hours ago. Maybe we can hope, find some light and have a closure after all. Anyway I don't really pay attention to people around me. Few things I'm able to do to them is seeing their auras if I try, connect with their thoughts and feelings and kind of adjust and figure their soul out (hard to explain this one because it's completely abstract feeling). Like when someone doing the most unlikely things and out of character deeds I will not be suprised by those instead I will feel familiar and have feeling of always knowing things. I'm afraid I can't really relate with the animals stuff, as for me it's just subtle connection with animals where I can connect with them as I do humans but a more subtle. The last but not least, the feeling of being watched. It started on September last year I can't tell you the full story it would take too much time. In short suddenly I felt a presence, much bolder than ghost's but very bit less than human's. I even mistaken it for human presence at first. I felt it. It intended to kill me. With a curved knife no less. Since then I always know it when they are watching me or in close range with me. I have no idea what kind creatures/beings they are. They bring remarkable amount of dread, sorrow and cold detachment with them. If you're into Harry Potter then closest thing you'll ever relate is a Dementor. It sucks your happiness dry along with some part of your soul and replace it with something unpleasant and awful.
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Hey Annea,
The "battlefield" of emotions as you described it could be different energies that have attached themselves to your own energy, I am not 100% sure if that's the case, but you could try to cleanse your own energy when you meditate to see if that makes a difference also I would advise you
To shield afterwards, imagine a bubble of light surrounding your body and protecting it from anything bad, trust me it works, as for the feeling of being watched what do you feel when it happens? Does it give you any specific feelings?
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I have something similar, but with my thoughts. I get a lot of unwanted thoughts. & it's like someone is invading my space. It's really annoying to deal with.

For a sensitive, they feel unseen energies. Some call them energies of different dimensions.