I would like to start of by saying my mother was Pagan up until my younger brother was born. I'm not quite sure if that has anything to do with my recent experiences. Lately something has felt right. I feel like there is another person in my body with me. I have thought of the possibility of me having a mental disorder but this is different.
It's only started recently. It started small at first. My eyes would tingle and I would feel strange, then my eyes would burn and few times they bled. Nothing super theatrical just a little blood. My eyes got very blurry. I went to an eye doctor and they said my eyes are fine.
The problem continued and then developed into something entirely different. I could feel something wrong with my eyes, almost as if they were changing completely. I caught it on camera more than once. I didn't intend to get the photos I was just taking selfies. I looked at the photos and saw my dark brown eyes were blue/gray. I normally take a lot of selfies and then decide which ones I want. So it was not a change in lightning or even angle.
Also I have been getting urges to do things that are unlike me. I have been able to control them but I feel like if I don't do them I will be unhappy. I also have been able to somewhat control things around me. I'm also very good at knowing what people are going to say/do. I never have been able to do those things before which is alarming but also neat. I'm a beginner in Wicca practices however I haven't done anything big. I don't know what's going on but I do know it feels strange.
I believe one of the most extreme things that has happened was a vivid death dream. I know this is not a dream site but the dream I had may help explain things. I fell asleep and there was nothing. It was like I entered a void. I was convinced I was dead and I had accepted it but I woke up out of breath. That happened before anything with my eyes and personality. Please if you have any idea what is happening to me let me know. I'm also interested if you have gone through this and if you have any tips to control it.
Thank you so much.
Sending positive vibes
Tori