Stalled By An Anxiety Diagnosis, Now Learning The Reality

I'm 33, and at 19 was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder that had been with me since I can remember.

I was medicated for this for several years. I read an article about empaths being misdiagnosed with this disorder, and started researching. It didn't take long to figure out the better term for me would be clairsentient. I'll try to describe my "gifts" (I'm still struggling with this, so its hard to consider it a gift just yet.)

Even as a small child I was always aware of the moods or changes in moods in those around me that others seemed not to notice. It's easier now as an adult. I can tell how someone feels despite their best poker face. I can even sometimes read into those changes and understand their reasons and motivations for even the most subtle change. However most of the time it is only an awareness, it's not often I take it on myself. Generally positive emotions give me peace, and negative ones make me anxious. Not always, as I take them on myself occasionally, and negative energy seems to cling to me.

I don't know yet how to block or get rid of the negativity, so I am struggling with the effects. I am getting better just through the process of maturing.

I have also always had very strong impressions of places. This has been my whole life but took a long long time to notice.

This is the area I am the most unsure of, so any guidance with what I describe next would be amazing!

Generally I get very specific impressions of emotions from buildings, lots, and even trees. It starts as a negative or positive emotion. (Negative seems easier to pick up or notice) If I follow the feeling I can then describe it more accurately, Brooding, malicious, angry, resentful, sad, resigned, ect. Again I don't FEEL these feelings so much as recognize them generally.

I have had on occasion had very strong tingling sensations go up my legs. This I do not understand as there was no emotion to go with it. The most memorable was at an antique fair. I always get hints at those places, but nothing very notable had caught my attention up to that point.

Sometimes rooms feel smaller or bigger than they should, and very often I find that certain areas of a room or building are hidden from me. By which I mean I can't recall those areas afterwards no matter how many times I have been in that place. Its like I'm not supposed to see them or maybe not welcome to? I don't understand that much either. Case in point, I have visited a very good friend of mine countless times, and know the general layout of his house. However, I can't picture the breakfast nook at all, and an area off the living room that I have literally faced for hours and couldn't describe it other than a "space". I have had this experience many times in my life, and a lot of times I'm not even aware of it until later.

I also never feel alone, ever. The passenger seat in my car always feels "full", and generally any space to my right just seems "full". I can't describe it other than that. I don't pick up any specifics, except that I find myself talking out loud and have to remind myself I am alone.

I can't use the clairsentience purposely. Empathy is easy, but the other has to be organic. I have just not learned enough about it to make it useful. I don't trust myself yet to know if its real or my imagination unless it just pops up. If anyone has any insight into this, I'd love to hear from you!

Thanks for giving me a space to blurt this all out!

Blessings!