The Girl And The Shadows

From when I was born to about 7 Years of age I had night terrors, though it really wasn't. Every night I would fall asleep, in a normal dream running. In this state I could wake up, until the way it all ended. I was in a place known as the void, or at least to me. I was tortured by a tall, dark and wide shadow with red eyes, even more realistic then the world around me. I called it the Warden. Everyone just said it was a dream but, in dreams you can wake up. In dreams you don't get physical wounds and mental scars. It lasted for about 7 years. Then the warden just changed, let me go. It was, controlled I think, by the girl. She would appear in my dreams recurring. I'd never remember her face it just shows up in my memory as a blur. She was a different person physically every time, but she her voice and personality remained the same. As well as that, she was the only thing in a dream I could actually feel with touch. She was also a little bit flirty with me but that's about it. Every time I cried she would fixed the problem, pleasing me but at the same time punish me though nightmares if I do something bad until I learn I was wrong. Over the years I've developed physical and metaphysical problems. At first I resulted solutions through science, trying to find out what's wrong with me. Walls would move, color everywhere, even one time a door moved and all I did was stare at it. Then, I would just start drawing these things. One minute i'm checking the clock then the next I was freaked out about the words I wrote and the pictures I drew. Stuff over time just came to me, stuff that was on this site like what people said these spirits or angles said to them. Just came to my mind like a snap of a finger. I have no clue what I am, actually it's freezing and when writing the first part I felt like having a heat stroke in a cold room. What I know and am learning are just piecing up together. Please respond soon, they're everywhere.