Was I Psychic?

I've never actually seen anything head-on. Most of what I thought (and my friends and family thought) was psychic was really just a tight feeling in my chest that told me someone would die (both sick and healthy people), or that something bad was happening. Death was the only thing I knew ahead of time. Almost, everything else was in real time. Same tight feeling in my chest or if it was a dream it was symbolic but I knew what the trouble was. And it was almost always trouble. Except for a couple of weird things. I seem to cause electrical problems for myself (like I can't keep an alternator to save my life or wear a watch), but I can walk through a casino and feel winning slot machines (but only in big casinos with lots of energy). Made some good money lol. There have been a couple of communications with the other side. But not talking. They would move things that were of importance to them while they were alive or that they thought were important to me. Some people I'm connected to and others not at all. There doesn't seem to be any rhyme or reason for the connections. I've never had control over any of it beyond choosing whether to listen or not. People would call to ask if something was happening with someone that I had felt a connection to before. I usually knew. Several years ago, I stopped listening, or at least talking about it. Especially to family. It got to the point where if I brought anything up, one of my sisters would freak out. Over the last few years I've had a hard time telling what's part of my ability and what is just nonsense worrying. Whenever I go awhile without feeling something, I doubt myself. Even when I know no one else does. I haven't felt anything in my chest in a long time. I think it stopped when I stopped the connection between my ex-husband and I. It didn't go away right away. I still knew everything the poor guy was up to. A year after the divorce, I guess. I still have spirits around me, but mostly they just play with one of my dogs. Sometimes I can see the shadows in my peripheral vision, but I've never been able to see them straight on anyway. There seems to be more of them now, but they're not communicating with me. They're just around. I get the feeling that some are not even here for me. So, was I psychic? Did I lose it? I have cursed it before and wished it gone. Did I give it away? It actually kind of scares me. It has saved my life a few times.

So, am I just nuts? Very lucky? Very unlucky? Is it gone? Can you lose your abilities?