I Am Being Drawn To The Psychic Force

Thank you for commenting. It does feel like it is negative.
Thank you both for your suggestions.

I don't think it's irrational to be scared. I've been scared my while life. It's hard to trust something you know nothing about, that's why I found my way here too. I had horrible anxiety about everything but there are things you can learn about protecting yourself. The most important thing that helped is learning that there are ways to protect yourself just keep searching. The comments from the reply before mine also have a point though, it's likely just the fear of not knowing more than the likelihood that something negative had found its way to you. If you do feel like it's something negative learn about smudging, light white protection, and the easiest by far being just to say out loud or in your head "Go away, you are not welcome here."

That being said I've always felt drawn back to these topics but most of my life I've spent avoiding talking about it or thinking about it. Even at the age of 24 I was having panic attacks for the same reason, something was near me, all the time, in the car in my house, even at work. I was only scared because I didn't know what it was or its intentions. In hindsight it was likely a pure entity, I remember laying in bed with my boyfriend and felt a hand touch just above my knee. It wasn't scary almost comforting but I was still terrified. I think the more you learn the less you'll be afraid I know I still get anxious but I'm doing much much better.

Why are you scared? It's not a big deal if you're attracted to metaphysical or paranormal topics. Just release your worry and let you be you. As far as someone watching you, it may be your guide or maybe you're just being paranoid? Does it have to be a bad thing? We can look at life through a positive lens or a negative one. The results in life will reflect back to us through events. Being so young, it would probably benefit you enormously to practice being more positive. See the good in your interests. Think positive about who (if anyone) is watching you, like a grand parent who has passed on or something.