My Newly Found Abilities

I am here to try to get some help and any advice you can give would be greatly appreciated. Ever since I was a young child I would have vivid dreams as well as night terrors that I could not wake myself from, many different ones but all of the details stood out with no detail left behind when I was awake. I never thought anything of it growing up as my family would brush it off to be an over active imagination. I have also experienced severe "Deja Vu" moments where I knew this particular situation was going to happen and I remembered every detail again. Conversations word for word at times I could recite in my head before the other person or I spoke. Everything really started to kick up in 2010 all of a sudden it was like this force made itself known to me, things would go missing and my children would somehow find them several days later in odd places. Before you ask my children were in bed fast asleep for one particular incident and there would have been no way they could have taken and hidden the item, they were the ones to find it but unable to tell me where or how they got it. Into the now I have been sensing someone is watching me all times of the day/night as well as seeing small things happening again such as bathroom door slowly opening and closing on its own, a small figure near my sons crib that quickly went away after I noticed. I also see what to me seems like little sparkling circles basically everywhere I go (Does this mean anything) I was prompted to contact a Medium and I trusted my feeling to do that. I spoke with her yesterday on the phone and she explained a lot to me about our guides and them trying to make themselves known to me and that I have nothing bad in my home. She also without knowing this about me explained the reason I have anxiety attacks (I was recently diagnosed with severe anxiety with an unknown cause, until now) is because I sense all of these guides around me. She mentioned that I do have this gift and that I should attend meditation (which is donation only) to learn how to open and close this ability. She said I can close this but it won't stay that way forever, so I would really like to learn how I am to do things. This was the last thing I was expecting when I spoke to her but I will believe what she is telling me. I have always been the type to be afraid of the dark/unknown and always thought of myself to be an "outcast" so to speak because I never really fit in with many people. The medium I spoke with also helped me to be more at ease with what is happening as they are only my guides reaching out to me. Can anyone give me some helpful tips on what I can do now, as it will be a while before I can attend meditation. Oh and would someone be able to tell me what she meant when she said I signed onto a contract on the spiritual side of things? I want to call and ask her so many more questions but afraid that I would be a bother. Thank you so much in advance.