I've always been very sensitive to my 6th sense, premonitions, feelings and dreams of future events, even hearing close friends and relatives after they have passed away until they cross over.
My first experience was when I was about 7 or 8 (1972) when I was given the task to play a fortune teller at a school Halloween party. Even though the fortunes were silly or funny thing, many of the fortunes came true. But one fortune was for a couple in our neighborhood who told my parents earlier they were done having children. When they came to me I told them they would have twins, a boy and a girl in the next year. Everyone laughed it off, I mean I was only a child. Heck if it didn't come true, because the following summer, they had twins, a boy and a girl. My mom told me she had been the same way when she was a child and also said to just go with the flow and to use my feelings for good in my life. Sometimes I didn't heed the warnings and that usually caused some painful life lessons. So I've learned to trust my internal gift.
However for the past 6 months I've only been hearing 'one' premonition in my head over and over and I don't know how to react or rid it from my mind. This one thought has caused all other sensitivities to leave, simply vanish. No more dreams, feelings, premonitions, etc., simply gone. It's like a death to feel nothing when for years I've had, what I classified as a constant companion, leave my side. Even my husband has noticed the change in my demeanor.
No matter what I'm doing to prepare for the future, this voice keeps saying... "It's not going to matter after October, it's not going to matter after October". Also, it is an actual voice speaking. Now, other than in dreams or someone that had passed away talking to me, this is only the second time I've heard an actual voice speaking aloud, and it is not my voice.
I've tried not to let it overtake my planning for the future, but it's becoming overwhelming and sometimes I just scream aloud, "I get it, I get it, you've said it enough, now go away"!
If something is going to happen, it's going to happen, I'm okay with that, but I'm tired of the 'recording' playing over and over in my head with no relief. I've never talked to a psychic about what my life holds, but I'm seriously considering it. I don't feel dread, grief or panic, but I do feel sadness of what this premonition could be to have such an impact that nothing is going to matter to me after October. Also with the loss of my 6th sense to help guide me as before, I'm simply lost. Any thoughts or suggestions, or even similar experiences?