Psychic Experience Of My Whole Life

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From around the age of 6 years old, I remember to have some weird unusual experiences. It might be a bit weird and I myself don't know if its true, but I remember me flying around at that age. One day at my grandpa's house I told him to come into the living room to watch me fly, he replied and said "You can't fly, nobody can" (similar answer don't exactly remember). So after he told me that, I told him that I could fly so I walked away, sadly I started thinking the same way as my grandpa, "You can't fly". And after that point it was like my memory erased all of the flying memories, and that thought that I could fly. All I remember today ist that. I have talked to only one person about this, and that person said it could either be a thought that never existed or something really happened. Personally I know this is not just some thought that I have but it is a lost memory.

In the later Years, I have been experiencing a lot of Psychic experiences, mostly predictions. I have this feeling that is buried deep inside me hidden for an unknown reason, that I want to come out. No not because I want to be awesome and have powers which, but I feel like its hidden because its meant to be found. I need advice from someone to help me with this or tell me if its just a matter of time that this will awaken or if it ever will.

Many nights I haven't slept at all, just before falling asleep this dark shadow kind of feeling crawls over me and just at that point sometimes I can't move one or both of my arms as if I were unconscious but conscious at the same time (don't really know how to explain it). My dreams have answered me a lot in my life I've received many answers except the answers to this problem.

I live in an area with a lot of mountains and Nature, I often go for a walk in the Nature and each single time it feels like I'm begin watched (exactly how I feel right now that I'm writing this story) and I get this feeling that I have a quest that involves going up one of those high mountains, a task yet to be done. But how can I be sure if something bad awaits me up there or if its just a thought and isn't even true, I really need help with this.

When I wal need dead trees I feel like I'm getting some sort of energy from them or a feeling.

I feel like kind of like I have sort of "Wizard" powers hidden (Telekinesis). Day and night I think about this its something that won't go out of my head even if I try very hard to think of something else it won't go it has taken a part of me that I don't yet understand. I could really need someone that could help me with this, not just in the comments but feel free to email me: tonycore1@hotmail.com

I will tell you more experiences and more detailed feeling over there