When I was speaking to my grandmother last night I experienced a strange vision. I have experienced strange visions such as these before, whereby I seem to get tunnel vision on the speakers face and my perception of them begins to change. It feels almost as if I am peering into the person souls. This usually happens when we are having a deep long conversation in a relaxed atmosphere.
Anyway last night I was speaking to my grandmother about a time when I was trying to escape society (I am a paranoid schizophrenic and was perceiving 'signs' which were telling me to leave modern society behind). While I was telling her about this my perception of her began to change, as per usual. But this time what I saw was different. It was like I was looking at the face of death itself. Her face turned to something skeletal and corrupt.
Some say the eyes are the windows to the soul and that what I was seeing was her inner soul. Others say that what I saw was a reflection of who I am, and that what I saw was a mirror of my own soul. Reality is full of mysteries, which occur day to day. The mystery to me, is what caused this? What was it that I saw, and why? I know that what we observe in an entire lifetime is only a tiny fraction of reality, which is endless, and that when we observe the universe we are like a telescope, observing only a small part of it and having no control over what we see. Some say that it was not my grandmother that changed, but my perception of her. Someone else has said that her appearance did not change, I just saw another aspect of her being.
I had taken no illegal drugs of any kind when this happened, although I am on medication for antidepressants and depression. Regardless of this, I don't see how chemicals in the brain can lead to the perception of death-like images, or why it should manifest in this way.
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