Seeing Orbs And Trying Automatic Writing

There was one time when I was in kindergarten, and I had no friends at the time, didn't know anyone, and was close to tears on the playground. Without warning a girl sat down next to me, and I don't even remember what she looked like except that she had red hair and that she seemed to glow. I felt as though I could tell her anything and she would never judge me.

I told her what was wrong, and she told me something, but try as I might, I can never remember what it was she said. All I know is that she helped me and inspired me. I remember running off, and having a strong feeling to look back. I did and the girl was gone. I promised myself that I'd never forget, but as soon as I got home, I started to forget her. What she looked like, what her voice sounded like, what she said to me, everything. I think that there were others there, waiting for her.

Recently, I've been trying out automatic writing, and the first time I tired it, it worked. The person didn't want to talk, and after they said that, there was a loud breathing noise. After that, they said, "Leave us alone."

I've also been having weird dreams lately. One time I dreamed about my grandmother, but the weird thing was that she was just a head. A few years later, she died by a blood clot in her throat. That was around the same time when I was having strong déjà vu. And I've been seeing orbs and red dots in my dreams as well. I don't know what to think, and since I'm still learning, can someone help me find the answers?