I Don't Believe In Powers But This I'm Not Sure?

I'm not 100% when I first started experiencing this, but I think it started around middle school. I can't explain it really well with words. I never really tried. When I focus, I feel like I feel something around me. Like an aura. But I don't believe in that sorta thing though, as cool as that would be. It's like every organ inside of me, and everything up from my ankles, I feel excited, like energy. Maybe this is all in the mind, I don't exactly recall it this way, but perhaps when I was a kid I would try to copy Dragoon Ball Z (a TV show). Yes lol I know its hilarious. But I don't think that is the case.

It's hard to control. When I do this, depending on how hard I focus on it, it becomes hard to walk or my are/ leg will shake (my muscles). It's like there are different levels, like I have mentioned the harder I focus, the harder it is to maintain, and do a simple activity such as walking. When I walk and do this I'll walk at a faster pace when I try to keep this "focus" at a minimal.

I like to lift a lot of weights too. There have been two incidents where I have tried this "focus" while lifting. It's nothing amazing, maybe it is nothing. Once when I was doing squats I used this "focus", the lift wasn't as nearly as a struggle, thought it was still a challenge, but when I reracked the weight I wasn't tired, I wasn't breathing hard like I normally do. The other time was when I was joging, I was finishing my last lap. I used this focus once again, it increased my speed, like I was sprinting, but not intentionally sprinting. When I had finished that lap I was tired, breathing, but not nearly as hard as I would had of expected considering my last lap was nearly a sprint, and I was struggling before hand.

I don't know what this is. I feel there is something with this. I don't know. I think this "focus" is just in its infancy. I think I can increase this energy. But maybe its all in my head. Maybe its just my mind.